PTM yesterday was a waste of time. mr ho just kept asking me questions while he filled in this piece of paper. my mom's presence was useless. i guess he wants my mom to hear my answers. my mom wasnt being very supportive when she started talking bad about me in front of my teachers, saying things like "i told her this i told her that, but she just wont listen". i pointed my econs teacher out to my mom. BUT she wanted to say hi. and guess what? my gp teacher was there too!! oh, and my gp teacher said that i lack the drive and motivation. my econs teacher told me that i should use this weekend to think if i really want to do alevels. if i was given a choice, i wouldn't. but what else can i do if i just quit like that?

i just cant stand people putting so much pressure on me. coz i know that it will come to a point where i'll just breakdown. which i definitely want to avoid. this reminds me why i prefer the education system in MCPS. because i dont feel so much pressure from my teachers or peers. i did feel stress but not the kind of stress i feel when im in the singapore education system. how to supposedly enjoy studying when i think of the pressure and stress that people are putting on me whenever i have to study? even my mom nags at me about how i'll fail at the rate im going. i just wish that she'll put less pressure on me and be more supportive.

anyways, i think i always get all the shit. coz i've got conjuctivites. and its contagious. haha. my mom told me not to spread it to the family since i was the one who spread the cough to everyone.

i cant wait for alevels to be over!!!!

ps. dinner on thurs: =)))